Overcoming Self-Doubt Through Awakening Dreams
At Intalenta, nurturing the growth and progress of our team members is our top priority. Recently, one of our exceptional talents, Silya Christine, shared her inspiring journey with us. We are deeply grateful for the journey she has shared. Here is her story:
“Tell me what your dream is after leaving this job, so that I can feel at ease letting you resign,” asked Adi, my leader, when I submitted my resignation.
That surprising question was put to me just as I was feeling an overwhelming desire to resign.
In my first six months at Intalenta, I went through a rollercoaster of emotions. I felt happy, excited, and fearful, but also overwhelmed at times.
Starting my career here filled me with pride, but also doubt. I wondered if I was good enough for this talented team. I started to question my abilities, “was I truly the one they were looking for? Were my abilities sufficient to meet the demands of this great company?” which led to daily struggles and even tears in the restroom every day.
I began to stress and fell sick multiple times due to overthinking. One day, Sri from HR noticed my withdrawn behavior and declining performance. She approached me to discuss the difficulties. After our talk, I felt relieved knowing that they offer assistance so that I don’t feel alone when struggling. But soon enough, worries crept back in.
The offer I received was helpful, but I’m not used to opening up about my struggles, so I didn’t let myself accept the help. It felt unreal to have company management genuinely offer assistance to its talents. Normally, companies expect the best from their talents without considering their well-being.
I started feeling inadequate, always doubting if I could succeed to survive here. Every task felt overwhelming because I keep doubted my abilities. I felt foolish for joining this company, and this pressure weighed on me every day.
Until one time I thought that I might be pushing myself too hard to join here. I considered resigning as the only option.
Shockingly, when I decided to quit, I was asked about my dreams. Honestly, that question deeply shook me to the core. It made me realize I hadn’t thought about them before. I was always focused on work, not on what I truly wanted for myself.
It was a wake-up call. I realized I forgot about my own happiness while I was busy with work. I didn’t know how to think about my own dreams. I was only concerned with doing my job well, without realizing I could pursue my dreams through my career.
This realization was shocking. I had missed out on the chance to follow my dreams while working. Because I didn’t know that the opportunity to unite dreams and career is real and exists.
Feeling lost, I admitted that I didn’t have any dreams at the time and no plans after resigning.
Adi, the Managing Director and my leader, took the time for a one-on-one chat. We discussed my situation, my personal dreams, and whether my dreams were within this company. He also shared his own career struggles journey, and we laughed and cried together. He encouraged me to start dreaming, even if they were simple aspirations.
Reflecting on our conversation, I realized it was a turning point for me. I decided to embrace a new mindset and pursue my dreams. I didn’t want to just work; I wanted to create and help others. But before I could do that, I needed to help myself first. Thankfully, I had people totally willing to support me on this journey from merely working to creating.
I don’t want to let down those who have supported and convinced me about my potential wholeheartedly. Through perseverance, seeking help, and confronting my fears, I have grown stronger. I want to be transformed into someone who can creates.
A heartfelt thank you to the entire team at Intalenta, to Sri in HR, and especially to Adi, my leader, who has invested time, energy, and his trust in me.”
At Intalenta, we cherish individuals like Silya, whose journey exemplifies resilience and growth. Silya’s dedication serves as an inspiration for us all.
We are steadfast in our commitment to nurturing our team’s development and providing them with our support.
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